So I messed up the other day.
You see, over the summer I (with the help of an amazing sister) built some good convictions about certain shows I didn't think I should watch anymore. They definitely were things God had put on my heart and He was patient with me.
I hardly watch TV during the school year, but when I am home for break, there is definitely more time on my hands to watch TV, and that free time got the best of me 2 days ago.
All the shows I said I wouldn't watch: Keeping Up With The Kardashians, Real Housewives, Love and Hip Hop, and basically anything playing on MTV, VH1, and BET, I watched.
It's like as soon as I allowed myself to watch 5 minutes of one show, I just was mesmerized and I had to just divulge in it all at once. I hadn't seen these shows since May and I wanted to catch up on them all, even though the whole time I knew I should have changed the channel or better yet, turned off the TV. I continued to watch all these shows that were full of vulgar, fighting, vanity, immodest dress, etc.
The reasons I had decided to stop watching these shows is not only because they weren't helping me spiritually at all but because I idolized the lives of these women on these shows. Before I became a Christian, the woman I looked up to the most was Kim Kardashian. I felt like I could relate to her. She had everything I wanted my life to be and could see it being; beauty, money, men, and fame.
When I watched these shows it continued to put me back in my old mind set, made me re-think back to my selfish ambitions, and made me not appreciate the new and more fulfilling life God had for me.
Basically after watching hours of TV. I went to bed feeling guilty and just had to pray. God put on my heart that I needed to go back and re-gain my convictions. I woke up the next morning and wrote down why I chose not to watch those shows before and I found scriptures to back up why I knew that's what God wanted me to do.
"Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things."- Philippians 4:8
Satan really knows how to use the media to lie to us; it's so visual, so accessible, so glamorized, so edited, and so fake. He's been using media to lie to us quite some time now, and I fell for it.